So I have decided that I need a blog to talk to because some days it feels like there is no one around to talk to... Like today!! Ahhhhhh my world has flipped upside down my heart is breaking and im happy all at the same time!!
There are NO words so explain how I feel I suppose I should start with last night my feelings from last night----> Why God? Why cant I just have this one thing?? I would do ANYTHING... did you hear me A N Y T H I N G!!Why does my heart always end up hurting? Why do I choose this for myself? Is it because I would rather feel pain than nothing at all?? I just want someone ... anyone who believes in everything that I believe in... is that to much to ask? I'm sooo sick of all of these almost Christians!! A friend, a man, a sister, anything!! i just need something sooo badly RIGHT THE HECK NOW!!!!! Is it wrong for me to feel like I'm sinning just sitting by her while she is drinking? is it normal for me to hate them for smoking a strawberry whatever?? Why is my hear breaking yet again?? Oh ya its because the guy I'm in love with is sitting across from me drinking a cooler and to top it off he just had a smoke... AHHHHHHHHHHHH.... and to make my life even greater... how you ask? Oh well my best friend is sitting next to me with a beer!!! And I'm watching the most retarded movie ever!
There are NO words so explain how I feel I suppose I should start with last night my feelings from last night----> Why God? Why cant I just have this one thing?? I would do ANYTHING... did you hear me A N Y T H I N G!!Why does my heart always end up hurting? Why do I choose this for myself? Is it because I would rather feel pain than nothing at all?? I just want someone ... anyone who believes in everything that I believe in... is that to much to ask? I'm sooo sick of all of these almost Christians!! A friend, a man, a sister, anything!! i just need something sooo badly RIGHT THE HECK NOW!!!!! Is it wrong for me to feel like I'm sinning just sitting by her while she is drinking? is it normal for me to hate them for smoking a strawberry whatever?? Why is my hear breaking yet again?? Oh ya its because the guy I'm in love with is sitting across from me drinking a cooler and to top it off he just had a smoke... AHHHHHHHHHHHH.... and to make my life even greater... how you ask? Oh well my best friend is sitting next to me with a beer!!! And I'm watching the most retarded movie ever!
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