So here I am sitting in my house:) Our two cats are playing with eachother its so cute!! I'm just getting used to not living with my parents... big change ya know:P Going from 9 people to just having the 2 of us.
My housemate Vicki has her brother over tonight and they are up in her bedroom... and I can hear them talking. And singing.... thats right her 20 year old brother is singing with her and its melting my heart!! How can a complete stranger take my breath away with just the sound of his voice? Maybe its just the idea... that some guys would actually come home from school and sit with their sister and as she plays her guitar he would start to sing with her. That the guys that I meet or the guys that I like are also brothers and have families and that maybe just maybe this big tough guy show that they all put on is just that... a show. That maybe with some guys there is actually emotion way down deep inside of them and under their strange attitudes they are actually just someone's little brother.
It is actually really encouraging.... and confirms that I am over Evan. Not because my heart is melting but because I know forsure that there is no way would would have been good together. He was what I was looking for because he was opposite of me... but maybe that.. no wait obviously thats not what I need. I need someone who is into the same things as me... who has been raised the same as me, who is in love with music like I am. I need to be with someone who is like be but at the same time is different and can complement me... where I am lacking he will be there and where he is lacking I can be there for him:) This is my new mission ... to find a man who is like me but who will be different enough to complete me.
When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
Where the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
I will stay.
Nobody will break you,
Yeah.
Trust in me, trust in me.
Don't pull away
Trust in me, trust in me.
I'm just trying to keep this together, because I could do worse and you could do better
Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you.
~ Marianas Trench
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