I want someone that will miss me when I'm gone for a week
I want someone that will take me out for breakfast on my birthday
I want someone that cant wait to talk to me at night
I want someone who will let me cry when I talk and not tell me "oh don't cry"
I want someone to wake up beside
I want someone that wants to protect me
I want someone that will fight for me
I want someone that tells me I am worth more
I want someone...

Dare to dream....

So where do I start??? Jame Ryan Sweet.... boyfriend?? future husband?? best thing to ever happen?? a jackass?? a joke?? going to break my heart?? I WISH I KNEW!!!!!

So heres the break down
1) we met on christian chat in 2008 sometime
2) I added him to MSN
3) we talked a bit
4) we didn't talk for almost 2 years
5) while I was in Tennessee, we chatted a couple times again
5) I gave him my cell number
6) he tried to text me.... but it didn't work
7) didn't hear from him till last sunday (May 2, 2010)
8) he tries to talk to me, but I pay him almost no attention
9) he asks for my cell phone number
10) I give it to him because apparently I had already given it to him (see #5)
11) he texts me....I don't respond
12) HE CALLS ME!!
13) we talk all afternoon (aprox. 5 hours)
14) I go to Jackie's house for a few hours
15) he calls me when I get home (another 3ish hours on the phone)
16) he tells me he prayed for me and that he would move to Canada from where he lives in Ohio
17) then he goes on to inform me... his dad is a pastor, his mom is a teacher, he was in the navy for 2 years, his name is JAMES, he plays guitar, he sings, he wants to lead worship, he was a farmer, he was home-schooled, he works at sprint....
18) he sends me a text with the lyrics to the song "just to see you smile" the same song that plays in the v-day card that i got for myself in ohio a few years ago
19) he says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me
20) I fall in LOVE

so that pretty much sums it up.


I have no idea where its going to go from here, all I know is that I miss him when he is gone. The thought of him holding me makes my heart beat faster!! I can't wait for him to meet my family and I can't wait to figure out our future together:)

I will update you soon,
Becca

Remembering...

I found a letter that I had written for Thomas after he passed away, and I thought I would post it on here:)

Dear Thomas,
I love you and you loved me; together forever we will be. Though we may not be together in person right now, we are together at heart. For our love stretches beyond the limits, because our love is not from 2 but from 3, Jesus, you and me! I am proud to have called you a friend even though it was only for a short time. I really am proud of you!
You were and always will be an inspiration in my life and your qualities will not soon be forgotten - your love, your dedication, your courage, your faith, your joy and your patience! Your new birth in Christ and baptism were such a joy to witness! Every night I thank God for you and your friendship and I pray that, even though you are no longer here with us, your memory will never fade away. I look forward to the years ahead when I can talk about my friend Thomas, the man who told me to never stop reaching for my dreams and to trust God in every situation. I can’t wait to share the blessing of heaven with you. Someday I will be there with you, praising our Lord and sharing our experiences together.

I love you with all of my heart.
~*~ Becky ~*~(Becca)

I still miss him... very much!! And every time I'm in Fergus at Rachel's church and I see Chase it makes me think ok him. Sometimes when I think about him I catch myself smiling:)

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one